If I could dream at all, it would be about you.

This one is dedicated to Shellikens, who, well, is dying, and has waited patietly for, like, ever. ^^

*MY POINT OF VEIW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

My hand still hurt. Bad. I felt like shit letting loose like that. I started to cry, yet again. Smith pulled me closer to him, which I though was impossible. We were in AFI's tour bus, laying on the seats.

"How's your hand, baby?" Smith whispered in my ear.

"It hurts like hell," I responded. He kissed my fore head. I sighed.

"I wonder how the others are holding up," I voiced my thoughts.

"I imagine they are doing okay," he said, "but I have no idea. Want me to call Dave?"

"If you want, but I'm gonna make coffee, you want some?" He nodded as he dialed the number. I went into the kitchen, while Smith made the call. I put in two scoops and four cups of water and turned it on. By the time I was finished, so was Smith and he had news. Bad news. He ran in out of breath and told me,

"Adrianna ran away."

*ADRIANNA'S POINT OF VEIW!!!!!*

I ran untill I was out of breath. And lost. I sat and cried. Cried for Shelly, for October, and me. I had no idea where I was. I needed help, and knew it, but I was so stubborn, I just figured I'd find my way myself. Typicall of me. I got up, brushed myself of, and tried to walk back the way I came. Anyway, I didn't have my phone.

"Okay, so......" I thought out loud. I retraced my steps, but with only a little luck. I searched a little longer, but gave up and sat and cried. Again. 

"Hey," I heard a voice. I jumped about a mile and looked up. It was Jade. I let out the breath I was holding.

"Jade, you scared me!"

"I'm sorry," he said sheepishly, "I just have that way with people." I laughed a little. He put his arm around me and pulled me to him. And I cried as soon as I put my head on his shoulder.

"I don't know why I did that. It's just that October always has her way, and does anybody care about me? NO! I'm just Adrianna, and she's the beautiful, abused, little emo girl. EVERYONE loves her. Not me, everyone ignored me." I cried, feeling like a baby. But I didn't want to do anything else. Jade kept hugging me.

"I happen to care about just Adrianna," Jade said quietly.

"Really?" I asked.

"Yeah." He wouldn't look at me.

"I care about you too." He looked into my eyes. He was so beautiful. Then I couldn't help it anymore. I kissed him. On the lips. And he kissed back.

There will be more tomorrow!!!!!

 

K, so this is like the 8 facts, but a little diferent.

1. Post your top 10 hot guys/girls.
2. Tag 10 people, but try not to tag anyone who has already been tagged, k?

Here goes .............

 

10. Jeffree Star. Though IDK if I like him 'cause he's a guy or he's a girl. X( Yes, I think I'm bi. But I'm not sure. So if you read this, please comment with some advice. Please, I need it. Alot. BTW, y'all are the first people I told, so feel special!

 

9. Jade Puget.

 

8. Ray Toro.

 

7. Bert McCracken.

 

6. Jepha Howard

<-- he looks like just woke up!

 

5. Bill Kaulitz (I think that's how you spell it..)

4. Gerard Way.

3. Davey Havok.

 

2. ADAM CARSON!!!!!!!

 

1. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND (you guessed it!) SMIFFERS!!!!!!!!!!!

TAG!!!!! daveyhovokishot, xbumblebeex, jenda, mikeysgirl, xbert4lifex, jaderoxmysox, blaqkwingsofhavok, emmy21, farora, and.............. um, xxxafireinsidexxx

 

 

 

 

 

*MARIAH'S POINT OF VEIW!!!!*

We rushed to the hospital later that day. All of us girls were crying, and I found my comfort from Gerard, Kristin from Davey, Adrianna from Jade, and Jean from Mikey, and so on. October fell asleep, sitting on the floor, laying her head in Smith's lap. She was overwelmed by finding Shelly and stuff. I had stopped crying but still had my head buried in Gerard's shoulder.

"When will we get some news on her?" Adam broke the silence. No one knew. The hospital tendants decided to let us sleep there that night, but we still couldn't see Shelly. All of a sudden, I started to cry again. Gerard wrapped his arms around me, hugging me.

"She'll be alright," he told me, his voice cracking.

"I just wish shit like this didn't happen," an angry voice said. That voice came from October, who had woken up.

"Oh, no," I whispered.

"What?" asked Gerard.

"She has an anger problem." And she proved it.

"This is so FUCKING stupid! Shelly only runs when something happened, or someone hurt her! So why did she go run for no reason?"  Smith tryed to calm her down, but it didn't work. Tears streamed down her face as she bent down to her knees and screamed in anger. She hit the floor and there was a couple sickening cracks, but she didn't seem to notice. She kept on screaming for a few seconds and started to sob. Smith pulled her into his arms and took her hand, her middle and ring finger were broken and the bone of her middle one was sticking out, blood falling out of the wound.

"I'm gonna take her to the bus and wrap this up," Smith said, close to tears. They left and an akward silence fell over us.

"Well, I'm going to the little coffee shop, and get some coffee, anyone else want any?" I asked quietly. They all shook their heads.

"I'll go with you," Gerard offered. He took my hand and we walked to the elavator. We got in in silence and push the 1.

"I hope October will be alright," Gerard said.

"She always is fine after a couple days or so. I just hope Shelly lives."

*ADRIANNA'S POINT OF VEIW!!!!!!!!*

I had my head on Jade's shoulder. He had his arm around me and was brushing his hand through my hair. A few more tears were flowing, but then I couldn't cry anymore. I sighed.

"Will you be okay?" Jade asked me. I nodded a little.

"I'll be okay as long as Shelly is," I answered.

"Which I hope she will be," Jade whispered.

"Yeah, me too." He pulled me a little closer, but I was too sad to be excited. I really hated this, Shelly had little chance to live, and October was having a melt down, which pissed me off.

"I hope October is holding out," Kristin told us.

"Oh, yeah, she'll be fine," I said curtly.

"Adrianna-" Jade started. I pulled away.

"Don't even," I warned. "October always has to have EVERYTHING be about her."

"Adrianna, don't you dare talk about her that way," Kristin warned me.

"Or what? What can you do? And you know I'm right. Ever since high school, she was the melodramatic emo girl everyone felt sorry for. She still has to have it that way." I was crying now. Kristin had gotten up and was facing me.

"You're just jealous."

"Of her? Come on!"

"Then why are you acting this way?"

"'Cause I fucking can! Isn't that what you guys always say? Well, so can I!"

"You're such a bitch!"

"Yeah, well right back atcha!" Then she slapped me.

"You know I'm right," I repeated, cutting my eyes at her and rubbing my left cheek. Jade was pulling me away, and Davey was trying to get a hold on Kristin.

"I wish it was October dying, not Shelly!" I yelled as I pulled out of Jade's grip and ran. And ran. And ran.

*KRISTIN'S POINT OF VEIW!!!*

 I knew she didn't mean any of it, but it still bugged me. I hated her for it! She knew how much October and I ment to each other. I was in the bathroom washing my face.. I screamed in anger. I gripped the sink, hard. I heard a soft knock.

"Kristin?" came Davey's voice.

"Come in," I answered. But he didn't. Oh, duh, I'm in the girl's bathroom. I thought.

"It's okay, I'm the only one in here," I said laughing a bit. He came in slowly.

"You're a real gentleman," I said, rubbing away my smeared eyeliner.

"I-I heard you scream," he said.

"Oh, yeah, I was just angry, I'm fine. Really." But he pulled me into a hug anyway, which, without me realizing, was what I really wanted. I wrapped my arms around him and cried. Hard.

"It's just that I love October so much!"

"I know, I know," he said, brushing his hand through my hair. I pulled him a little closer.

"I'm always here for you, you know," he said tipping my head up with his hand.

"Same here," I offered, thinking it was no good. He hugged me again.

"Thank you, you have no idea how much this means to me." I was wrong. I rubbed his right shoulder. I never wanted to let go.

 

Hey, I know Kristin and Adrianna are friends, this was just for the drama. And I hope this one made up for the last sucky one!! Comment ^_^

 

*JEAN'S POINT OF VEIW!!!!!!!!!!*

Mikey and I were laying down again, watching Nightmare Before Christmas. I had my head on his chest and he was falling asleep. I started to kiss his neck, went up his check and to his lips. He kissed me back. I stratled him and he ran his hands up my shirt. The door swung open and there stood Hunter.

"Dude, KNOCK!" Mikey shouted.

"Smith just called,"Hunter said, ignoring Mikey, "Shelly is being taken to the hospital."

"What?" I yelled, shocked. "Why?" I got off of Mikey and the bed, and walkedover to Hunter.

"She went for a walk and fell and cut her leg. And October passed out, but she came to."

I swallowed hard and tryed not to cry. But tears came anyway. Mikey came over to me and pulled me into a hug.

"What's going on?" Frankie, Smantha, Bob, and Ray came in.

"Shelly fell on her run and has to go to the hospital," Hunter replied. "And we don't know if she'll make it."

 

 

*DAVEY'S POINT OF VEIW!!!!!!!!!!!!*

"Hey, Kristin?" I asked her.

"Hmm?" She was writing something.

"Shelly had an accident." She raised her head.

"What?" She looked like she was going to cry. I sat down by her and pulled her into my arms. I felt her warm tears through my black shirt.

"She's being taken to the hospital, Smith and October are with her," I comforted Kristin. She looked at me. I met her gaze and looked into her eyes. I really wanted to kiss her.

"Will she be alright?"

"I don't know, they said she lost a lot of blood."

Sorry, NOT one of my better one's, but I'll make it up to ya'll. My mommy was rushing perfection.

K, people I have NO idea what this is, so let's see if I do it right.......................

 

1. I LOVE Smith Puget LOL

2. I used to hate make-up.

3. I have a cat and a chiuahuah <-- IDK if that's how you spell it... : l

4. I play trombone

5. My favorite necklace is actually a belt. Hehe.

6. I'm on anti-depressants, which give me weird dreams

7. I have a birthmark on my left, upper thigh that is a perfect circle.

8. I'm horrible at math.

Again, IDK if I did that right. LMAO

THIS ONE IS DEDICATED TO ALL OF YOU HAVE WAITED PATIONATELY. THANKIES!^^

*ADRIANNA'S POINT OF VEIW!!!!!!!!*

"Got any fours?" I asked Jade.

"You suck," he replied, handing me a four of hearts. I nodded.

"Yeppers! I saw your cards when you bent down to get your pencil," I told him, popping a Goldfish in my mouth. His jaw fell. I laughed and started to choke.

"It's what you get," he told me. I gave him the evil eye.

"You two playing go-fish?" October came hand-in-hand with Smith. We both nodded.

"Exciting," she said, taking a goldfish.

"Is that a hint of sarcasim I heard?" I asked playfully.

"Really? I thought her voice was dripping with it," Smith said, laying a kiss on October's neck. I blushed and looked at Jade. He was looking at me too, so I quickly moved my gaze. He's so beautiful,  I thought.

"Speaking of Shellikens, where is she?" Jade and I looked at her funny.

"We weren't talking about Shelly," I told her.

"So? I still don't know where she is," she said, as she started to play with Jade's hair. For some reason, I felt jealous. But I knew better. She was with Smith. Maybe I just like him that much, I thought.

"So?"

"Oh, sorry, I got lost in my thoughts, um, she went for a run," I told her.

"K, thankies, Smith and I are going for a walk, maybe we'll bump into each other."

"'Bye," said Jade and I at the same time.

"Jinx," he said. I stuck my tounge out. He laughed.

"You two are weird," October told us.

"Oh, look who's talking," I playfully came back.

"Moi?" She pointed at herself.

"Yeah, you," I pointed at her, too.

"K, later," she said, taking Smith's hand again.

"Use protection!" Jade yelled after them.

"Got it!" Smith answered before he closed the bus door.

"Oh, my God, Jade!" I said, punching his shoulder. He rubbed the spot. "Ow." He pouted.

"Want coffee?" I offered.

"Totally random, but yeah," he answered.

"K," I jumped up to go fix it. I really am falling for him, I though, looking over my shoulder.

 <-- JADEY!

 

*MY POINT OF VIEW*

Smith and I playfully swung each other's arms around. I leaned over and kissed him. He kissed me back.

"I really care about you Smith," I said, "And I just want to tell you about Erik." Tears welled up in my eyes.

"Erik?" he asked.

"Yeah, he was my first love. We met at the Hot Topic in the next town from mine. He was working there ata the time and I saw him first at the check-out. He exchanged numbers and strated to date f a few days after. I was a junior when I proposed to him. We decided to get married the summer after my senior year. He-he died in the car crash on our wedding night." I started to cry. Smith pulled me into him.

"It's alright, I've got you," he comforted me. I rested my chin on his shoulder.

"Hey, look," I pointed. He let go and I started to run toward the black-and-red glob.

"SHELLY!" I yelled as soon as I recognized her. I looked at her leg. There was a huge gash going from her knee to her ankle..

"NO!" I screamed and started to cry. I heard Smith calling the ambulance, and I thew-up. I felt light-headed and dizzy. Shelly was dying. I couldn't take it. I passed out.

 

*Jean's side of the story*

She took her life.

Just like that.

Now she's gone. Forever.

I'll never get to meet her.

Or speak to her anymore.

She's gone. Just like that

*Mariah's side of the story*

I can't take it. Just can't.

They're words hurt me. Way deep down

I hate it.

They know it.

They say it anyway.

It hurts it sucks.

I just have to end it.

*Jean's side of the story*

She really is gone .

I loved her.

She knew that.

It's not fair.

I can't live on.

I just have to go.

Like her.

*My side of the story*

They're gone. They both are.

I can't belive it.

I miss them.

I'll never see they're faces

I loved them.

They knew it.

Now they're gone.

Just like that.

Guys, please don't go through it, I miss you forever and ever. And I'm no the only one who will.

Sucked ass. I had my period the whole time, then I had a fever, then a sore throat, then a stomache ache, then all of that TOGETHER, THEN I had a nose bleed!!!! But, I'll admit, overall it was fun! ^^ I'll try to post some more fanfic tomorrow, promise!!! Lovies!! Oh, BTW, thank you for those of you who have read and kept up with this whole shindig!!!! LMAO  

*BOB'S POINT OF VEIW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

I felt the tears run down my face for the first time in awhile. I had to do it. It wasn't fair to Shelly. It was the next day after I had kissed her. I just wasn't ready for it. And I didn't think Shelly liked me the way I liked her. I was so torn. Torn between starting a relationship with Shelly and my still-hurt fellings over whats-her-face. Fuck it! I thought angrily. I had to find Shelly. This was killing me. I had to find her. Now.

***

I found her eating some Pop-tarts. I tapped her on the shoulder. She turned and smiled when she saw me. Which made it even harder.

"Hey," she said. I gave her a fake smile.

"May I talk to you in private?" She looked around at her friends.

"Uh, sure," she said uneasily. We walked out of the tour bus and walked in silence for awhile. Then I sucked in my breath and just blurted it out.

"Shelly, I think we need to just forget our kiss last night." She looked at me with surprise, which I belive turnd in to hurt.

"Uh, well, fine. Yeah, okay. I-I get it," she muttered and lowered her head. Her hair fell down around her face. Oh, shit, maybe she did like me, I panicked.

"Hey, Shelly-" I reached out for her. But she backed up.

"Hey, Bob, I get it, no need for explaination," she said, walking off. I lowered my head. I felt so bad. I just hope I didn't make the biggest misstake of my life, I thought a more tear were shed.

 

*SHELLY'S POINT OF VEIW!!!!!!!!*

I was out of breath and my side hurt, bad. But I kept running. My arms were pumping the air, and my legs were pounding the ground. I tripped over a branch that I didn't see. I skidded on the wood's hard, leafy flood.

"Urgh," I moaned in pain. I looked down at myself and saw that my leg was scratched and bleeding all the way from my knee to my ankle. I leaned my head back down on the ground and cried from my pain, both physical and emotional. My leg and heart hurt so bad. I can't belive he did that to me. I punched my hand down on the ground Well, if you hadn't been stupid enough to fall for him! I fought with my self. My vision became blured. I stood up and tried to get back to the bus. But with my leg bleeding made me dizzy, and I didn't know where to go. I stumbled to a nearby tree. I felt my legs go weak. Then I fainted.

 

 

I'm going to the beach, and hopefully we have internet! If you do not hear from me, I am not dead, I still love you, I'm just on vacation!

THIS CHAPTER IS DEDICATED TO KRISTIN AND, OF COURSE, JEAN, WHO WOULDN'T LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!!!!!!!! SO, YEAH. One thing. Guess what happened this morning? MY EYELINER BROKE!!!!!!!!!!!! *cries helplessly* It was so young! Haha  JK *Someone* had too much coffee today. *cough*October*cough* Anywho, back to the story.^^

*DAVEY'S POINT OF VEIW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

As we left the store, I couldn't feel any shittier. I felt lower and lower with each step. I heard footsteps behind me. I turned to see Jade.

"Hey," he greeted me.

"Hey," I replied sadly. Jade took my arm and lead me away from the group.

"Alright, what's going on?"

"Nothing," I replied too fast and very lamely. He rolled his eyes.

"Hey, come on, Javey!" Smith yelled at us, playfully. Jade responded by yelling for Smith to hold on.

"I ain't a dumbass, Davey. Now," he said softly, "what's going on?" I sighed. And decided to tell Jade.

"Well, I was just about to tell Kristin how I felt, but then Smith and October came around, and by then, I lost my courage." I bowed my head in shame.

"It will take you a long time to get the courage to do so, Davey. What Altessa did to you put a dent in your emotions, Davey. I'm not kidding. But one day you will get the courage, I promise." He smiled at me when I looked at him, and then I returned the favor.

"You done yet?" Smith yelled impatiently.

"I hate little brothers," Jade mumbled.

"I heard that!" Smith yelled.

"You hear everything, Smith!" Smith laughed.

"That I do!"

 <--- LOOK!!!! *faint*

*ADRIANNA'S POINT OF VEIW!!!!!!!!!!!!*

Jade and Davey walked in on AFI's tour bus. The first thing Smith said was

"What the fuck were ya'll doing?"

"Hi to you, too, Smiffy," Jade said.

"Don't call me that!" Smith wailed.

"Twenty years later, and he's still a brat."

"JADE!"

"See?" he sat down by me and my stomache flipped.

"Dude, Adrianna, do your preppy voice!" Ray said. I turned in surprise.

"Huh?"I asked stupidly. Everyone fell out laughing. Exept Jade. I blushed and lowered my head.

"Aw, look what you did Ray," Frankie said.

"Me?" his voice came out a little squeaky. Then I was able to laugh at that.

"Come on, Adrianna," Ray pushed.

"Ooh," said October, "I don't think she can handle the peer pressure!"

"Dude, I remeber Mrs. Hillyard and her damned peer pressure!" I told October. We went to high school together.

"I know, right?" she said excitedly.

"If you do not give into peer pressure, you will live a better life." I mimicked the English teacher. Everyone fell out, even Davey and Jade, who had both come in kinda despondant.

"I think this voice is better than your preppy one," Jade said, smiling.

"Thanks," I replied, running my hand through my hair, which was a habit of mine. Everyone started their own conversations after that. Jade offered me a piece of his chocolate-chip gronola bar. I accepted and ate it. It was good.

"What brand is this?" I asked.

"Nature's Valley," he replied, turning over the wrapper.

"Oh," I said, unable to think of some conversation. I noticed Davey looking at Kristin. I wonder if something happened between them, I thought.

"What are you thinking about?" Jade asked me.

"Do you see how Davey is looking at Kristin? Kinda like he, well- you know, um, likes her. More than a friend? Do you get me, or is it just me?"

"Well, ahh, I think it's just you. I think he's just looking at her." he turned away before I could reply. But I knew better. Davey and Kristin have something going on but neither of them were ready for it.  I wish Jade and I had that.